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20 October 2006 @ 07:55 pm
Goddamnit  
This is stupid, but I don't know what to do.

I spent most of yesterday doing candidate work. I'm spending tomorrow afternoon doing candidate work. Tonight he called me up and asked me to go out for a drink at a bar near my home (with a bunch of other people). I said I would after he cajoled me. Then I called back and said no, and he said "How'd I know you were going to call back and say that?" (That would be because I nearly always don't go out with them.)

"I told you I'm not a going-out type person," I said.

"Yeah, but this is just a bar, it's not like there's going to be a bunch of people there," he said.

So great. Now I feel guilty for not going out. I don't fucking want to go out. I've been so busy this week, and I want to stay home. I get where he's coming from-- everytime we're together, it's me doing work on his campaign, and he wants to do friends things as well. That's fine. I do appreciate it.

But I don't like to go drinking. I'm bored when they talk about college sports. I want to be social, just much less often than they do. But I feel like if I keep turning them down, they're going to stop being my friends. And it's kind of pathetic, but these are the only friends I have here.

Damn it all.

PS- freak_in_need, I'm going to lie down and try to calm down, but I may end up sleeping through the night. So if you don't see me, that's why.
 
 
 
High-velocity pie of death: staplernixieq on October 21st, 2006 12:34 am (UTC)
One of my anti-social tendencies ... when I go to a gathering with too many people, I've been known to ignore all of the humans and simply play with the dog for hours until I get to go home.

*raises hand* yep, me too. and ditto on the not-more-than-four thing.