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21 March 2005 @ 12:29 pm
I want to live a moral and ethical life. I don't think I have been. I've been allowing myself to slide on issues that are important to me. I need to determine the best way to live my life.

That involves not collecting material goods just to have them. There's a pleasure in acquisition and owning things. I need to recognize that spending money to acquire goods that I don't need is wrong. Not just recognize it when I'm on this knife-edge of feeling like I am, but when I'm better, too.

It involves wasting less. Less paper, less metal, less plastic, less gas. It involves recycling as much as possible. It involves avoiding non-biodegradable packaging, or packaging as a whole. It involves saving things I might otherwise throw out.

It involves not occupying my mind with useless things. Not wasting time on entertainment. We don't have much time in our lives; it should be fully used, not killed.

It involves living my whole life-- my work and my social life-- to make the world better than it is.

And it involves bloody well REMEMBERING THIS when I'm well, and tempted to be lazy again. It's happened before. I WILL NOT let it happen again.

I'm finding that life outside an office is so different from life working in an office. I wonder if I can manage, once we move, to have our business entirely on our property, and not be in an office again. I think that would be healthy. I think I would be happy.

I feel like I've done so badly with my life. I mourn all the money and resources I've wasted. I will not do that again.
Mary Lewys: licketylickmlewys on March 21st, 2005 10:15 am (UTC)
You wanna know the great thing about Life, darlin'?


*grins* You get to have a do-over. *huggles* And I may have found you someone that would be great for your farm and your farm would be great for her.