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03 April 2005 @ 03:23 pm
Last night, had dinner with fuschia, heather_dusk, and sphinxvictorian and partner. Dinner was lovely. Went to a vid show after, which was exciting, a little too much so for me. I'm not able to handle much right now. :) There was a Greyhound debacle, but thanks to my friends, I made it home last night.

Really worn out today, and woke up with much anxiety. Rather than take something for it, I tried to tease out exactly what I was worried about. No luck; I fell back to sleep. But hey, avoided the automatic "take a pill" response.

Today, I read news on Iraq, and feel helpless and guilty. Guilty for enjoying myself when people are being tortured and dying. This article quotes a reservist talking about the war crimes he's witnessed, including shooting unarmed prisoners and killing civilians at checkpoints.

What can we do to stop this? I write letters, I try and spread the word, but it seems hopeless. The media lets the administration get away with murder, literally, and so many in the US just don't care, or don't want to know.

*sigh* Must fight the fight, even when it seems hopeless. Maybe outrage is dead in this country. Not mine.

I'm so tired.
Mary Lewys: Caremlewys on April 3rd, 2005 01:00 pm (UTC)
Baby, just because nothing changes doesn't mean you did anything wrong. All you can do is the best you can do. And Elle, if you stay informed, write letters, speak your mind, vote -- that's a lot.

Be proud that you care and do so much. Just because the world didn't change doesn't reflex on your efforts.

There are some things beyond your control. *hugs* But that shouldn't stop you from trying to do your best anyway.
Dana: no giving upthirdsouthobbi on April 3rd, 2005 02:02 pm (UTC)
This song reminds me of you.

It's the lyrics to my favorite song by Crossfade and is the one that kept me in Florida after the first hurricane, when all I wanted was to say "fuck it" and just go home. It's what reminds me not to cave in to my father's bullshit and just drop out of school to work full-time, since he thinks there's no point in my continuing my education. I know that doesn't seem like a whole lot, compared to the issues that are making you anxious, but to me, it's hard to deal with 24/7. This weekend has been a bit of a break because he's out of town, but meh.

Anyway, it's true that if you're not completely pissed off, you're not paying attention. Unfortunately, too many people just aren't paying attention.