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11 April 2005 @ 08:55 pm
So I'm going back to work in a week.

I'm not thrilled. It'll be good to have the money, but I've gotten to the point where I really, really hate my job. Not so much what I do, but the fact that I have to be in that place for 9 hours out of the day. I don't want to be there with those people.

I've loved being home. I'm getting things done, I'm busy all day, but it's a nice busy. The pace of my life is slower. I'm not trying to squeeze everything in-- there's plenty of time to get things done. I adore this. The weather's been gorgeous, I've done yardwork and laundry and book organization and there's just so much more I could do. I want to stay home and do it.

No luck.

I am going to save every freakin' dime I can find. I think we won't be moving until the end of September. I'd planned to work until mid-September, but if I've saved enough and I really want to, I'll quit earlier. *wonders how much COBRA will cost*

The good part is everyone at work thinks they gave me a nervous breakdown. So they'll be treading carefully around me for a little while. Heh. :)

But oh, I cannot wait to quit.
Avatar of Ambiguitymercurialgirl on April 11th, 2005 07:33 pm (UTC)
We still doin' stuff tomorrow? (Books and blue latex and car stuff and whatnot?)
Elletheletterelle on April 11th, 2005 08:28 pm (UTC)
Ooooh, if tomorrow is good for you, it totally works for me. :) Yay! Do you have my number?
Pouncer: Teddy is lovethepouncer on April 12th, 2005 04:31 am (UTC)
Good luck with it. I think that your plan on how to leave is the best thing ever - when you start to get overwhelmed, think about how great Florida will be. *hugs*
Elletheletterelle on April 12th, 2005 08:42 am (UTC)
Thank you. :) Oh, man, it makes me nervous. But it's got to happen. Gah. *saves money like Scrooge*
tiki_guytiki_guy on April 12th, 2005 04:34 am (UTC)
I was just thinking last night. That maybe Elle will be around when I get to DC on Monday. Now I see that's your first day back to work. I have such bad timing.

I'm glad to see you are making progress. Not that you want to go back to work, but being able to is a good thing.
Elletheletterelle on April 12th, 2005 08:43 am (UTC)
Heh, sorry. :) We can have dinner, at least. Do you have our numbers?
tiki_guytiki_guy on April 12th, 2005 01:04 pm (UTC)
I have your husband's cell phone, email me.
(Anonymous) on April 12th, 2005 09:05 am (UTC)
I truly understand where you are coming from. I spent 6 years in Aerospace, and I hated every minute of it. People didn't understand why - I had a cool job, worked daily with astronauts (80% of which are alcoholics - fun fact) got to meet senators, famous actors and tv people, congressmen, etc., how could I not love it, right? Wrong. I've noticed the more connected with US Government-type operations you are, the more miserable you are - hence the term "Going Postal". The Columbia crash was the last straw for me. (Its different when you actually KNOW the people who died) I imagine from your descriptions that your job must evoke similar feelings. (Working near a 9/11 ground zero couldn't have helped) Sometimes, one is just not meant to do a particular job, no matter how good they are at it. Personally, my job caused depression so bad it nearly ended my marriage. (you have an inkling of what that's like :)) Thankfully the depression went away when I quit aerospace, and hopefully you'll feel better when you leave your job. Sometimes it's just a minor change like that that can make a major change in one's life. Here's hoping it works out for you.