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02 August 2005 @ 01:19 pm
Things have been up and down. Anxiety and depression keep hitting, and I have to try and deal without falling apart. I've been having increasing motivation problems. I look at the house, and I know there's so much to do, and I can't bring myself to do anything, and then I feel terrible for staying home and accomplishing nothing.

Friends have been helping. kierajeng and nixieq are both heavensent. nixieq helped me get organized last week, and kierajeng helped me with a LOT of painting on Sunday. Yay!

Yesterday I ran errands and then fell asleep for 4 hours. Today, though, I'm feeling better, and I got some more painting done. Off to keep painting. If I can get a bunch of painting done today, I'll feel much better about myself. Soon, the basement!
Elletheletterelle on August 2nd, 2005 11:19 am (UTC)
It helps, but I can't shake the feeling that I need to be doing more, and that I'm a big failure by not working and just sitting home doing nothing. Or sleeping.

My antidepressants have gone up to 30 mg from 20, though, and today I'm really feeling the difference. Stuff is getting Done, and that's awesome. I can afford a few down days if I have days like these too.

Also, I seem to have stopped dreaming about your kids. I'm having the OMG SCHOOL dream again, but that's an old one. Probably has to do with all the stuff that needs doing here.