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28 August 2005 @ 06:57 pm

It's not just _redpanda_'s diagnosis that has me depressed and sleeping all day. It's that plus the request for prayers for a little girl in a coma from a head-on collision. Plus the impending destruction of New Orleans. Plus the knowledge that there will be more storms like this as the world heats up from global climate change.

For the last few years, I keep getting hit with new problems that I've never had to deal with. Every time I manage it, I regain stability, and I learn how to cope with that kind of thing. But then I get hit with a new one, and I have to learn all over again.

I'm not the one to worry about, and I'm not suggesting I am. This is not all about me. But this is my journal, and I'm just trying to process the way I feel.

I know life isn't easy. I know that my life is easier than most on the planet. I wish it could be easy for everyone. At the very least, I hope that I feel better and it's a good long time before I have a new problem to learn to handle.
I feel: depresseddepressed
I can hear: South Park, "Korn's Groovy Pirate Ghost Mystery"
Mary Lewys: Fartmlewys on August 28th, 2005 05:24 pm (UTC)
Please never wish easiness on me. I don't trust it. When things are easy, that means big time shit is going to hit the fan.

I need new castophies, dramas and problems so I can keep learning and grow stronger. How am I going to get better otherwise?

And one thing I can say about having a miscarriage: it puts things in perspective. Things that were once so important I can see now really aren't.

*smoochies* Moment of peace are all I want. And I have. And they're wonderful and I appreciae them. But I don't want them all the time because then I would appreciate them.
Elletheletterelle on August 28th, 2005 07:49 pm (UTC)
Huh. See, I DO want them all the time, and I still think I would appreciate them. I've never been adventurous. All I want is stability and tranquility.

I think the things that are important to me are actually important. Life, health, justice. That's what I get exercised over. I've made a positive effort in the last few years to stop following meaningless news (celebrities, fashion, etc) and become involved with meaningful causes. The welfare of others is important to me.

I'm sure all this is going to make me a better person, but I don't like it.