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01 September 2005 @ 11:05 pm
 
I'm holding back from feeling angry. Anger only leads to frustration. I'm so used to having my anger stifled that I'm doing everything I can not to be angry. But GODDAMMIT.

The incredible cock-up in the Gulf.

The complete incompetence of our leaders.

The people who voted for those leaders.

The ongoing disaster in Iraq

Friends getting sick.

Friends who can't find jobs.

My husband, who doesn't want to finish college, because he's tired of taking classes.

FOR FUCK'S SAKE. EVERYTHING IN THE WORLD IS FUCKED UP, AND I CAN'T BLOODY WELL TAKE CARE OF EVERYTHING.

Okay, none of this is my fault. I feel slightly better now.
 
 
 
(Anonymous) on September 1st, 2005 10:53 pm (UTC)
Whatever you do, don't hold the anger inside. Depression is anger turned inwards. By all means, rage against the machine. Rage against the morons in charge. (I didn't vote for any of them.) I'm raging myself at the cluster-fuck that is New Orleans... (pardon language) Rage at anything and everything around you. Get it off your chest. Seriously. But.. don't rage at your husband. When it comes right down to it, y'all are all each other has got. Give the guy a break. College isn't everything. Look at me - I never finished college and I own two businesses. My wife has a Ph.D and couldn't get a job (I started one of the businesses for her -it's doing well :)). I find an 80lb punching bag with Rumsfeld's face on it works well... :) Take it from a recovering depressant. Don't deny your feelings, embrace them. Then take action to take control of your life. (Oh, and listen to "Sunscreen" by Baz Lurmann.)

This long-winded, well-meaning message has been brought to you by the letter L. }:)

feel better



lanternlad
Elle: Gracetheletterelle on September 9th, 2005 08:09 pm (UTC)
Look at me - I never finished college and I own two businesses.

That is really damn cool. I suspect, though, that you have much more drive than Rob. I love him dearly, but he is an eternal pessimist and has very little drive.

I've taken a bunch of action to take control of my life. The things that frustrate me are the things I have no control over. Gaaaaah. *rages*
Drowned Girl Fuschia: An awfully close adventurefuschia on September 1st, 2005 10:55 pm (UTC)
It's not your fault at all, but I understand the frustration. *hugs* Glad that getting it out helps -- it certainly has been helping me over the past few days, as I try to process what's going on with the world.

*hugs*
Elle: Terrifiedtheletterelle on September 9th, 2005 08:11 pm (UTC)
It's just, why is everything bad happening at once?

Maybe after I get moved, I'll feel better. I hate being torn between places. I need to feel settled.
Fenrissfenriss on September 2nd, 2005 06:48 am (UTC)
I've been in much the same place for a couple days now. Too much, too much, too much.

But it'll pass. Just hold on, and remember that people love you.
Elle: I never wanted to be a startheletterelle on September 9th, 2005 08:13 pm (UTC)
*clings to you*

We need to get together before Rob and I go. Which is in about two weeks.